– Benny’s Thoughts – 17th September

Wow, what a weekend I’ve had.

Saturday morning, I woke up feeling low. I found myself thinking — “Have I made a mistake being single?” But then I snapped myself out of it.

“Benny,” I said, “forget it. Move on. Focus on feeding yourself first.”

So I did. I was meant to carry on building the shed, but the weather had other plans.
Instead, I took myself into Nottingham and bought myself a bandsaw and a pillar drill — because I’m going back to making birdhouses. Not just any birdhouses — the quirky kind, out of teapots and welly boots.

Sounds mad? Maybe. But they work.

Eight years ago, I used to make loads of them and sell them on Facebook Marketplace. Now I’ve got a bit of a following on TikTok, Facebook, and Instagram, so why not bring it back?

Let’s face it — gigging is great, but it doesn’t always pay the bills.
Children’s shows? They help a bit.
The farm? That pays some.
But I still need what my grandad used to call “beer money.”

I used to think he meant actual beer. But what he really meant was:

“A bit of extra cash to help you get through the bad times.”

So I’m doing just that.

On Sunday, I went to my mates Sarah and Ian’s wedding. Honestly, I didn’t want to go at first. But I pushed myself to get out the house — went to the ceremony, had a break, then made it to the party. And it was brilliant. I met so many new people and felt a bit more like me again.

On Monday, I was back at the farm.
And today (Tuesday), I’ve been in the shed making birdhouses — and already sold four of them. That’s £80 made in a day. Bring it on.

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The moral of the story?

Even when you’re feeling low, speak to people.
Don’t do what I did and push people away.
You will get there.

It might be dark for a few months, but you’ll pick yourself up. And I’ve learned something these past two months:

Reach out to friends and family — they’re the ones who will help you through.

Anyway, that’s me done for now.
See you Friday.