It’s been two weeks since I last did one of these, and it’s been a quiet one — but that’s okay.

I’ve been in the shed creating wooden Christmas trees, and they’re actually looking pretty good. I’ve also been trying to build up my following on Facebook and Instagram, the same way I managed on TikTok. It’s not easy though — you have to post every single day at the right time just to get any traction.

So far, it’s going alright.
About 70 views and 10 likes on average — slow, but it’s building.

I’ve been at the farm a lot these past two weeks too, helping maintain the paths. The goats need a hard pad so their hooves don’t rot, so I’ve been helping make that happen. It’s cold work, but it feels good to be outside doing something practical.

November was a busy one for Blue Badge Bunch, and that was great. I’ve also been phoning around lawyers and finance companies to see if we can get workshops booked in for next year. Like I always say — if you’re a comedian or an artist, it’s not just about telling jokes or performing.

You have to do the hard graft:

• emailing promoters
• reaching out to strangers
• doing the admin
• chasing gigs
• and keeping momentum going

That’s the side people don’t see.

I am enjoying life again, slowly. But my disability keeps biting me on the bum. I’ve overdone it these last few weeks, and now my hands keep going numb. It’ll stop once I stop doing the path work at the farm, but still — it’s scary talking about it. Because part of me worries someone will go:

“Oh, you can’t do this job anymore,”
and take the work away from me.

But the truth is, I enjoy the farm more than I realised.
It helps me feel connected to nature and gives me a purpose outside comedy.

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A New Job I Didn’t Want to Do… But I’m Glad I Did

This week I took on a new job — one I really didn’t want to do at first — but I’m so glad I did.

I went and supported Friz Frizzle so they could run a Christmas gig. I gave them a lift there and back, helped set up the sound equipment, made sure everything worked, and just supported them the best I could.

And honestly?
I really enjoyed it.
It’s another skill under my belt — helping other performers shine.

But here’s the funny part: when we arrived, people were looking. Probably thinking:

“This is unusual… two disabled people turning up to run a gig.”

And that’s exactly why disabled people need to be out in the world more.
The more people see us doing everyday stuff — working, performing, helping — the more they’ll understand that we can do anything they can do.

I know the government keeps talking about getting disabled people into work. And I get it — I want to work too. I don’t want to sit at home all day. I want to earn my own money and help others.

But sometimes it feels like they forget the obvious:

It’s not our fault we’re disabled.
Just help us.
Stop penalising us.
Let us work with you, not against you.

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Looking Ahead

And now, after looking at the diary —
Blue Badge Bunch is nearly booked up for the year.
We’ve got a few gaps left, so my focus now is getting more workshops and shows in the diary.

It’s hard going back on benefits.
And when I say hard, I mean they still haven’t given me an answer.

I applied back in August, and I’m still waiting.

If it wasn’t for my family, and for Ingenious Fools helping me with food and rent…
I honestly think I’d be back at my mum’s by now.

I’m grateful.
I’m tired.
But I’m still going.
And that’s what counts.